PART 3
She was following them. I turned the volume up. The daycare camera had no audio, but Paige had apparently obtained another recording from a camera near the side entrance.
The video jumped. 7:43. Grant opened the daycare door. Lucy ran inside. I watched my husband kneel down and kiss her forehead.
Then he said something to her. Lucy looked confused. She pointed toward the parking lot. Grant shook his head.
Then the woman stepped into view. My heart stopped. I knew her. Not well.
But I knew her. I had seen her before. At our house.
At the grocery store. Once at Grant’s office.
Her name was Vanessa. Grant’s assistant.
I had met her only twice, but she had always made me uncomfortable.
Not because she had done anything obvious.
Because of the way she looked at Grant.
And because of the way Grant always became strangely defensive whenever I mentioned her.
The video continued.
Vanessa approached Grant.
They spoke for approximately thirty seconds.
Then something happened that made my stomach twist.
Grant handed her Lucy’s pink lunch bag.
Vanessa opened it.
She looked inside.
Then she handed something back to Grant.
I couldn’t see what it was.
I replayed the moment.
Again.
And again.
Then I saw it.
A small silver packet.
My fingers went cold.
I knew that packet.
It was the emergency allergy medication I kept in Lucy’s daycare bag.
The medication wasn’t supposed to be touched except in an emergency.
But Grant had taken it out.
Why?
I paused the video.
My mind raced.
Then the video continued.
Vanessa leaned down and said something to Lucy.
Lucy shook her head.
She stepped backward.
Vanessa smiled.
Then Grant took Lucy by the shoulders and said something to her.
Lucy finally nodded.
He walked her inside.
Vanessa remained outside.
Grant returned to the parking lot alone.
Then he did something that made me cover my mouth.
He threw the silver packet into a trash can.
I stared at the screen.
“No.”
I whispered the word.
“No, no, no.”
I watched it again.
There was no mistake.
Grant had thrown something away.
But why?
My heart began pounding.
I looked over at him.
He was still asleep.
The man beside me looked exactly like the husband who had held me while I cried.
The husband who had told me I wasn’t responsible.
The husband who had said accidents happened.
The husband who had cried at Lucy’s funeral.
I suddenly wondered whether any of those tears had been real.
My phone buzzed.
Another message from Paige.
Please don’t confront him yet.
Then another.
There is more.
My thumb hovered over the screen.
I typed:
What more?
Three dots appeared.
Then disappeared.
Then appeared again.
Finally, Paige replied.
I didn’t tell the police because I was afraid I was wrong. But after seeing what happened to Lucy, I couldn’t keep quiet anymore.
Another video arrived.
This one was from the afternoon before Lucy died.
I opened it.
It showed the daycare playground.
Lucy was sitting on a small bench while Paige spoke with her.
Lucy was holding her stuffed rabbit.
A few seconds later, Vanessa appeared.
I leaned closer.
Vanessa walked toward Lucy.
Lucy immediately stood.
She didn’t look happy.
She looked frightened.
Vanessa crouched beside her and held out a small white container.
Lucy shook her head.
Vanessa said something.
Lucy backed away.
Then Grant appeared from behind the fence.
My blood turned cold.
He wasn’t supposed to be there.
He wasn’t scheduled to pick Lucy up.
I knew that because I had been the one who had arranged her pickup schedule.
Grant walked toward them.
Vanessa handed him the container.
Grant opened it.
He looked inside.
Then he put it into his jacket.
The video ended.
I sat completely still.
My first instinct was to wake him.
Shake him.
Demand an explanation.
But Paige’s warning stopped me.
Don’t confront him yet.
I looked at Grant again.
Then at the bedroom door.
Then at Lucy’s stuffed rabbit.
I remembered something.
Five days ago, when Lucy died, Grant had told me he had been with her every second after she collapsed.
He said he had called the ambulance.
He said he had performed CPR.
He said the paramedics arrived within minutes.
But there was one detail I had never questioned.
Grant had told me Lucy’s daycare teacher had called him first.
Now Paige was telling me she had never called him.
She had called me.
I opened my call history.
The hospital.
The daycare.
My mother.
My law office.
Grant.
There was no incoming call from Paige before I arrived at the hospital.
Only the daycare director.
I felt something inside me crack.
Not grief.
Not this time.
Something else.
Doubt.
I quietly got out of bed.
Grant stirred.
I froze.
He turned over.
“Nat?”
I stopped breathing.
“Yeah?”
“What are you doing?”
“Bathroom.”
He mumbled something and closed his eyes again.
I walked out.
I closed the bedroom door without making a sound.
Then I went downstairs.
The house was dark.
I turned on the kitchen light.
For five days, I had been unable to enter this room without crying.
This was where Lucy had eaten breakfast.
Where her pink plate had sat.
Where I had made her toast.
Where I had spent countless mornings cutting fruit into tiny pieces.
I opened the cabinet.
Then another.
Then another.
I didn’t know what I was looking for.
Maybe evidence.
Maybe proof that I was innocent.
Maybe something that would prove I wasn’t losing my mind.
Then I remembered the morning Lucy died.
Grant had cleaned the kitchen before I returned from the hospital.
He had told me he couldn’t stand seeing the breakfast dishes sitting there.
I had never questioned it.
Now I walked to the trash cabinet.
The trash had been emptied.
Of course it had.
But beneath the cabinet was the small plastic container where we kept garbage bags.
I pulled it open.
Nothing.
Then I noticed something underneath the sink.
